Duplicity

What do you do when you are living in a form that has two conflicting agendas?

Due to various life circumstances, I have perfected the survival mode within. I find comfort in playing it safe, and marvel at the order and security that survival mode provides me.

Survival mode monitors the cash flow in my life the way my lungs monitors my breath. However, the Dreamer/Believer despises survival, it sees it as an inhibitor to the grand plan. The Believer within knows that the practicality that dominates most thoughts and decisions produces only practical results. How can you shoot for the stars if you wont leave solid ground?

The more prominent question is what do you do when you are so divided in two? What do you do when you are in the middle of a mistake? If you have the choice to survive or accept the unknown, what do you do?